Wow, it's been a hot minute hasn't it. Crikey!
Life is certainly full on right now, in a good but weird kinda way. I'm here with a slightly more personal post today, a post I've wanted to pen down for the last couple of months or so. Basically, throughout this pregnancy I've been asked how it fairs in comparison to my pregnancy with Goldie, which was over 2 years ago (wow!)
I've always been quick to say how similar they've been, which in part is true. It was only when my sister pointed out how hard this one has been in comparison that I realised just how right she is.
I think because I haven't suffered with nausea or any major health complications (touch wood), that I worry about complaining too much. But in all honesty, this pregnancy has not been easy, not the way it was with my first born and I thought that might make for an interesting read OR as a bit of therapy for me having cried in my midwife's arms this morning...
First of all, I feel the need to caveat this with how lucky I know I am. I know I'm so lucky to be pregnant, to have a beautiful, healthy 2 year old daughter and also lucky to have had a relatively smooth ride this time around too. I know things could be so much worse BUT I only have my experience to go off and I have found it hard this time.
A few factors have contributed to this being a harder ride, the first noticeable factor is of course lockdown. With Goldie we were in the heart of a global pandemic and a country-wide lockdown. This meant I was able to rest pretty much non-stop, the world wasn't open and I was forced to take things sloooooow. Oh how I wish I had embraced that slowness more.
The second is the fact I now have a rather adventurous, confident and non-stop two year old in my life and boy does that make such a difference. If you're in the throws of your first pregnancy, ENJOY EVERY DAMN MINUTE, please! I'm exhausted, my body is constantly struggling to keep up with her and with day-to-day life and in all honesty I'm over it now, so ready to meet my little boy and to start feeling a little more able, fit and healthy again and a long and hopefully stress-free newborn bubble.
Other differences include absolutely excrutiating rib pain, day-in-day-out this time around. His foot or his butt or most likely a mixture of the two are constantly in the left side of my rib cage and the pain is agonising. It's been this way for the last 6 months but now, with the combination of feeling completely exhausted thrown in too, I'm having to rest up most afternoons and cut my days short, which I guess isn't a bad thing at this stage of pregnancy but for a workaholic like me, it's been quite the adjustment I must admit.
Heartburn is a new sensation for me with this pregnancy too, something I've never experienced before in my whole life but something that is RIFE this time around. Acid reflux too, it's all such a glamorous affair.
And we still have a few weeks to go. Can't wait for the potential haemorrhoids, the swollen ankles and the insomnia to kick in too...
But mostly I can't wait to meet him, what a beautiful thought to think we are only weeks away from meeting for the first time.
We've got this mamas!