Hello and a very Happy New Year to you!
I truly hope you had the most gorgeous Christmas and a very fun yet relaxing start to the new year and the new decade. It feels so weird to be sat at my desk at 630am on Monday 6th January 2020 after almost two weeks off. I simply can't remember the last time I gave myself two weeks off entirely; I certainly needed it and can't express just how energised, inspired and ready to go I am today. Sometimes time off is the last thing you think you need when in fact it's just the thing you need to get back to feeling like yourself and feeling motivated again.
Christmas is always such a busy period for me and the thought of stepping back from work feels so wrong and a little bit alien, however after just two days off I was already beginning to feel rejuvenated. Certainly something for me and I'd imagine a number of you to think about for 2020 and onwards- take time away from work!
So, it's the first day back at work for many of us, how are you feeling? Aside from feeling a bit achey having slept on my back a little bit funny, I'm pretty good and quite honestly I leaped out of bed this am.
Christmas was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster for me this year, amazing for the most part but with rocky patches here and there... But whats Christmas without some drama hey?
In happier news, wedding planning went up a notch which was so damn exciting; George and I feel more stoked for our wedding than ever before now we are quickly ticking things off of our list, or should I say carefully constructed spreadsheet, thanks maid of honour Faye 😉
I can't believe we get married this year WHAT THE HECK! This year is going to be absolutely crazy mental and I am SO damn ready for it and so ready to marry my best friend eeeeek!
Anyhoo, can you tell it's been a while since I wrote anything? What a load of waffle that was hey! But I'm so excited to be back to my beloved blog. Speaking of my beloved blog, I thought for our first post of 2020 that I'd share some quick and easy mirror snaps of some of the outfits I wore in-between PJ-days this festive period. Alongside the relaxed nature of the images, I wanted to both catch you up with whats been going on over the past two weeks, as I seem to have done already in this introduction... But also to chat about what you can expect going forward, how I'm feeling and what I have planned for 2020 so let's do this.
Throughout Christmas I managed to read a lot which was so refreshing as I simply adore getting lost in a book but often struggle to find the time. I finished another Taylor Jenkins Reid book and she really is fast becoming my fave author, but more on that in the next couple of book club posts, one of which I'm planning to shoot today so that will be live very soon. The passage below is from Maybe In Another Life by Reid and it really struck a chord with me.
I also started Where'd You Go Bernadette and I am absolutely loving it. It's been a couple of books since I've read something I don't want to end and this is exactly that.
Along with reading I've watched a lot of television both old and new.
Over the last month or so I've had SIX series on the go at once, which I must admit I do not recommend but at least I've never been bored...
Gilmore Girls(1-3 so far), This Is Us(3), You (2), New Amsterdam (2), The Crown (3), How To Get Away With Murder (5) I'm loving each and every series, particularly Gilmore Girls (I cannot believe I haven't seen it before) however I am finding The Crown season 3 a little slow in parts, anyone else? Whilst these 6 series and the pile of books I have for 2020 will keep me busy for a while please do let me know if there is anything you watched and loved over Christmas as I'd love to add them to my list.
So with all the reading, the series binge watching and the partying this Christmas I am shocked to say that from December 1st I haven't watched a single YouTube video and having been an avid YouTube watcher for the past four years this is quite something for me.
YouTube and I have had a pretty rocky relationship since I started my channel four years ago, I am either loving it, hating it or I'm extremely "meh" about it, both with creating and watching the creations of others. I've toyed with stepping away from YouTube for the past two years yet something will pull me back in and I'll fall in love with it all over again.
However, after a relatively successful year on YouTube, I've enjoyed creating and I'm proud of the videos I put out there in 2019, I have decided that my mental health and happiness is more important and 2020 is the year that I take a step back from video content in this way. And whilst I'm not saying this is forever, it's just not a priority of mine this year for a number of reasons.
First of all, if I'm no longer watching or engaging with YouTube content then for me that rings alarm bells. Why am I creating things that I'm not even enjoying watching...
Secondly when I think about the creators that I absolutely adore following, only one of them has a YouTube channel. That makes me realise that you don't need to tick every content creating box to be deemed successful. Many of the creators I love have tried YouTube and decided it wasn't for them and I guess thats exactly what I've done now albeit a long trial period of four years...
Lastly and I guess sadly of all, YouTube has a huge affect on my mental health. Unfortunately YouTube is the most negative space out there for me and I think for many content creators and after dealing with it for the past two years I've decided that it's just not something I need in my life anymore. The small negativity that I receive is nothing compared to that of others, however, I don't want nor need to accept it anymore. I started trying to regain control of my mental health and the negativity by reducing my YouTube uploads to just one video a week. I vlogged less and in those vlogs I didn't share any of my friends and family anymore aside from my sis, who gets it and is a tough cookie regardless.
So basically I'm stepping away from YouTube for a variety of reasons; it's not stimulating me creatively anymore, I'm not enjoying the platform as a consumer as well as a creator, I'm no longer accepting the negativity that comes into my life through that platform and finally as it's been four years it's time to move on and to put my creativity into something else. Whether that creativity goes back into my blog, which I feel I've neglected a little this past year, into my clothing line Saturday by Megan Ellaby, into my home, my wedding, my friends and family or into a new project entirely and I am extremely, extremely excited about it. I also feel strangely free and as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, temporarily at least.
I know some of you have reached out to say you're sad that I'm stepping away from YouTube but if you think about it like this, typically most people move on from a job after around 4 years. You gain your experience, your memories and your skills and then you move on to another place to learn some more and gain more experience, and I guess after 4 years of YouTube it's time for me to move on. Or at least put YouTube on hold for the time being.
The next quarter is for happiness, for making our house even more of a home, planning a wedding, writing as much as possible here, styling and shooting more content for my blog than ever (I'm SO stoked about this!) and for releasing more collections for Saturday now we're a year down and I've got to grips with the time it takes to produce everything (more on that in next week's post)
So, there we have a little new year catch up and a little bit about what you can expect from me coming up.
This feels like the most positive start to the year that I've had in the past three years and I'm excited to see what 2020 brings.
Lots of love to you all.