My sleep has already been compromised... And the baby isn't even here yet.
I'm struggling to sleep which means I'm writing more and more lists than ever before. Last night's list involved a list of things I want to do more of in 2021, which has inspired todays blogpost as I thought it might be quite nice to share this list with you all today 🙂
So, without further ado, lets go with number 1.
Shoot & develop more film photography.
2018-2019 were so great for me and my new passion of shooting on film and in turn sharing them with you. I loved the fact that it was usually a one shot wonder, you had to think a little harder about the shot before snapping away, shooting willy-nilly the way I do with my phone or my digital cameras was no longer an option and I enjoyed that. I like how you can't take a look at the photo and critique yourself afterwards, it's done, it's dusted and what will be will be.
But 2020 brought with it a real lull in my film photography, mainly as I couldn't get out to my usual developers to have the film turned into photographs and secondly because I thought I wasn't doing anything all that interesting. It's only now that I wish I'd documented last year on film. It would have made for such an interesting photo album to show our daughter, "the year you were made- the year we stayed at home."
But hey ho! You live, you learn! I've also since learnt that there are a number of options where you can post off your film for them to be developed and emailed over to you which is such a great idea and not something I'd ever considered before, so even if lockdown continues for months and months, I'll still be able to get my snaps developed. I can't wait to take photos of the baby gal on my fave film camera, it's going to be so much fun!
Well wouldn't that be nice, I've really missed my pals this past year and it breaks my heart that the majority of them haven't actually seen pregnant me, they haven't seen my bump or felt her kick, it's really quite sad indeed. But hey ho, there's more important things to come that I'm sure I'll be able to share with them and I CAN NOT FREAKING WAIT!
Have people round our new kitchen
Similarly to the one above but I'm so excited to have friends and family around ours to show off our fabulous new kitchen that was absolutely designed for hosting!
Explore the world with Raisin in tow
The travel itch is here and frustratingly one I'm unable to scratch, what with lockdown and of course being 8 months pregnant. I'm excited for our first holiday with baby girl, whether that's here in the UK of ideally somewhere sunny and warm. I feel like we were robbed of our final year of "freedom" but we plan to make the most of being able to travel again, just this time with a tiny human in tow.
PLEASE! One rescheduled wedding is enough thank you very much COVID19.
I want more of the simple life. 2020 brought with it the simplest of lives and it made me appreciate the small things in life more than ever before. I'm certainly keen for a simple life, something I've said for many, many years and I'm looking forward to taking what we learnt from 2020 and how wonderful simplicity, peace and quiet can be. Just perhaps in smaller doses hey!
I haven't exercised at all throughout my pregnancy, except for my hour long walk each day, which I've absolutely needed since I've been SO super restless throughout. I'm really looking forward to getting back into exercise again when it feels right. I'd really like to see a personal trainer again, particularly if I'm to fit in to my wedding dress again, but we'll see about that. No pressure, no rush, just following the needs of my body.
Last year was the year that I learnt to love myself, I became the strongest version of myself, knowing exactly who I am, what I want and who/what matters in life. I was able to see myself from the outside and finally, after years of struggling, realise that I am pretty great the way I am. I don't need to please everybody. I just need to be true to myself. I need to speak out about causes I'm passionate about without fear of upsetting somebody. I need to stand up for those I care about and I need to do more for me. I'm the happiest I have ever been, completely and utterly satisfied with where I'm at in my head and I'm excited to develop that throughout 2021 with the help of my little girl too.
I have a feeling this year, whilst it will be challenging in so many ways, I think it's going to be a beautiful one.