Hey everyone, I hope you’re all doing really well since I last caught up with you around 10 days ago now whoops!
Sorry about that y’all, and yes I know I seem to say that all the damn time lately and yes, I can totally see you virtually eye rolling at me ‘cause let me tell you, I’m eye rolling at myself too; My time management is completely off kilter right now but I’m working really damn hard to try and rectify that, it’s just taking a little longer than expected…
Life happens, it’s a saying that is thrown around all the damn time but it is a phrase that I can relate to SO MUCH right now! Life really is happening, I feel like I’ve blinked and we’re in July, like srsly how the heck has that happened for crying out loud?
I spent the first weekend of July (aka the best month ever) in Glasgow, one of my absolute fave cities in the UK having first visited late last summer.
We were up in bonny Scotland for TRNSMT festival, which, in case you missed my gushing over on Instagram or in my latest vlog, was bloody amazing to say the least! It was a weekend that felt totally care free, a weekend filled with lashings of sunshine, laughter, warm cider and awesome music. It was the first weekend in a while that actually felt like a weekend, a couple of days off where I didn’t think of anything work related and I just let my hair down!
It was honestly OH SO refreshing!
I thought I’d quickly mention TRNSMT as today’s look is what I originally had in mind to wear for one of our days in Glasgow. It’s the perfect festival get up if you ask me, made up of layers, for the usually temperamental British Summertime weather. However, as we all bloody know the weather has been somewhat spectacular for the past three weeks, the best summer I think we’ve ever had in all my life, seriously I’ve never known British weather like this. And with that, naturally the gorgeous oatmeal corduroy co-ord wasn’t exactly the best thing to wear in a packed field in 30 degree sunshine… but alas I wanted to share it with you anyway in case you’re looking for a touch of festival styling ideas OR just a casual summer look in general, for when the weather cools down at least.
There’s something about corduroy in this colour that has me hooked! I’m honestly a woman obsessed and I’ve not exactly been quiet about it. The super seventies fabric is naturally right up my street, but when teamed in this gorgeous natural shade which has become my go-to colour lately, it works to really modernise the somewhat retro fabric.
But unfortunately, it’s a little too toasty for anything cord right now so I’m going to pop this little co-ord away for the time being and no doubt whack it out when it eventually (and sadly) cools off again.
But, do not fret as these kind of pieces are perfect for the colder months too, simply throw on a fine knit polo neck for some serious retro vibes, a pair of deniers and some patent ankle boots and you’ve got yourself another tremendous look using you summer co-ord, just dang fabulous don’t you think?
The striped T-shirt works to add yet more retro vibes and also some much needed colour to the neutral base. My T-shirt collection is rapidly getting out of hand but in all honesty I don’t see this slowing down anytime soon, they’re just so bloody versatile and my absolute go-to’s for all my styling woes.
And lastly, I couldn’t possibly round up this look without mentioning these epic platform Adidas Samba trainers now could I!? HELLOOOOO! I spied these on Instagram not long ago and when they popped up in my ASOS “New In” I just knew they had to be mine. I simply adore the contrast of the white base with the jet black stripes set against the chocolate brown rubber sole, which is a good 3 inches to say the least. I’ve been absolutely LOVING trainers lately and plan to do a little trainers styling/collection video very soon if you’re keen?
But anyway, with the awesome weather, TRNSMT festival and of course me turning 26 last week (how the heck did that happen) things have been a little bit chaotic lately. My home and social life is really rather rocking indeed, and work is going SO damn well, but as is often the case when one thing is going well, something else slacks a little and I feel that has happened here on my blog and I don’t like it one bit. As I’ve said before my blog is my baby, despite the constant worries that blogs are a thing of the past, I truly do hate it when I don’t have the time to dedicate myself to it and give it my all.
I’ve been relatively strict with my blog schedule for the past 5 years but this year has seen schedules of all sorts slipping from time to time and for that I am sorry. I love routine, I love having a schedule and when I give someone, or in this case something, my word, I always like to stick to it. But sometimes life just happens AMIRIGHT!? This year has been quite the rollercoaster and not always for the most exciting of reasons.
I’ve had more moments of feeling lost than I’ve ever had before whilst on this blogging journey and it’s knocked me for six.
We all have them (right!?) but to think that we’re in July and I’m still struggling scares me a little.
There are a few contributing factors to this but I think one of the biggie’s is still the whole guilt thing about this being my actual real life job.
I feel so insanely lucky to be able to do this for a living and I absolutely, truly and whole-heartedly adore it, or else I wouldn’t bother.
Being a full-time blogger wasn’t something I ever planned on or ever strived for, it’s just something that snowballed and here I am 5 years in with a blog, a YouTube channel, an Instagram and Twitter account and I feel guilty when I’m struggling to keep up with it all.
I’m not saving lives, I’m not *really* helping anyone and I feel SO completely guilty when I don’t have the time to write/film/edit or when I can’t conjure up the words or the ideas, when I’ve had my confidence knocked through cruel comments and physically cannot bear to have a camera in my face. It’s often a cycle of really wanting and perhaps forcing the ideas to come to me yet not believing in my abilities enough to execute them. I know that I have worked extremely hard to get to where I am today, to create the world I’m now in, yet the guilt still creeps in. Even when I’m out in meetings, press trips or events which are all part of my job, the guilt still finds its way to unsettle me as those things set me back with my usual upload schedule. Perhaps I have imposter syndrome? Or perhaps I’m just a massive control freak who needs to give it up a little? Or perhaps it’s a bit of both, who the heck knows!
Perhaps I need to stop being so hard on myself and just go with the flow a little more, I mean there’s that age old saying of “quality over quantity” right? Perhaps I need to chant those words to myself the next time I get myself into a tizz about words/visions/ideas not coming to me as quickly or as easily as I would like them to or as they used to. Or perhaps I just need to believe in myself a little more or admit that I need some help with it all? Maybe it’s time to make this one man band a two or three man band? Who the bloody hell knows what will happen and I don't really know how this post took this unexpected turn but hey I’m just letting my fingers do the talking and probably giving too much of myself away again (sorry mum) but hey, this has always been my little venting ground and I appreciate all of your feedback and comments to chat it out with, I really do.
So anyway, with that one almighty waffle I will love you and leave you.
And I will be back at 10am on Thursday morning as *almost* usual but I think the moral of the story here is that we need to be a little less hard on ourselves, to not beat ourselves up when something isn’t working out the way it once did, when patterns, schedules, opinions and lifestyles change. It’s so easy to get bogged down about things and wanting them to go back to how they once were, but the truth is, if that was to happen, I wouldn’t have my home, my puppies, two very exciting projects to be working on behind the scenes (another reason my schedule is struggling) so change is ultimately good, I just need to learn to TRY and embrace it and try and get some help with both the work load and the being kinder to myself.
Watch this space